The Emerging - CordieB
She walks this earth inside her mind
Her fear of love has made her blind
She wears a smile with distant gleam
But all is well, or so it seems
She spat at love eternally
And swears this is the way to be
This is one thing she feels she can control
Yet there’s a hollow in her soul
for which she can’t quite fill the void
Thus, She walks though life quite paranoid
That there is something in her being
That’s lying dormant; unforeseen
An imagined evil just on the surface
For which she cleverly keeps in place
By a trillion thoughts of self reduction
Repetitive thoughts; causing obstruction
Of true desire for what can make her feel
worthy of love, of life, of zeal . . .
So long these thoughts have tricked her mind
She scantly remembers there being a time
When she knew how to live outside of self
When she felt deserving of being blessed
She thought she could live this way forever
But the universe willed her to discover
The backwards spelling of the dormant evil
The love she stubbornly won’t allow to spill
She fears the pain she may evoke
That take her breath; make her choke
That pains her more than anything else
Since her mind’s convinced her she can’t help herself
So she wears soft shoes that hurt her feet
As a constant reminder of past retreats
She has not learned the power of self forgiveness
For she’s convinced she deserves no blessing
So love resides in remission; deeply submerged
For years in dormant; yet soon to be emerged
Love is pushing its way from inside out
Though she’s quite successful at keeping Love out
Each time she feels Love peeking around
She changes directions to ensure she can’t be found
Yet, God has other plans for this child, disguised as woman
LOVE WILL crawl from the hidden place she’s tucked Love in…
–Written by CordieB
P.S. If you think I wrote this for you. . . I did 
sweet!
very well written – nice
Beautifully written, my dear!
this is the key..right here in your words:
“LOVE WILL crawl from the hidden place she’s tucked Love in…”
You are on the right path..one of HEART!
Namaste’!
Ps I love your image too!!
This is a powerful piece, one of deep obligation and one which needs to be taken, claimed… For all who are brave enough to claim her. I am speechless. Was this not written for you as well… perhaps, or maybe not… You are a lot stronger than me… and most…
Blessings for this… I shall ponder these words for days to come.
@Enreal. Tis so strange. Although I was thinking about someone else while writing this. . . I have seen myself in this poem in a most painful yet inspiring way throughout this day. . . it has been a revelation. It’s so strange . . . as I had never saw myself in this manner until I wrote this. . . It is like a pure Love and zest for life is forcing Her way out; emerging within me as well – one which I suppose has been submerged deeply in the depths of my being – for which I must have forgotten or hidden along the way since perhaps childhood. Perhaps I too can reclaim Her. I shall elaborate perhaps on a follow up post.
what a perfect piece for me to read today… i have been in the naughty place for so long now,, i have started a private journal again in which i can spew my vile venom and no one else has to be subjected to it….
i just love you girl,, you are my soul sister in the flesh,, i feel it every time i step here onto your page…..
Very insight, Cordie. I especially enjoyed the open-ended comment regarding who may have inspired the work.
@Nika. . . Thanks Sweety; I’m glad you liked this one. Thanks for the Love! PLL, C
@Rawdawg. . . Thanks Jones! Thanks for the Love! PLL, C.
@Paisley. You’re my soul sister too girl! I hope you don’t hold too much of that journal in secret; as I just love reading your stuff, no matter how dark or light it may be. I ALWAYs come back with something . . . , another perspective, a closer look at self, aways someting! So don’t feel you’re hurting me if you keep some of it public! But of course they are yours to do with however yu wish. . . but the selfish me will miss your postings if you stop sharing! After writing this one, I began to look at things about myself for which I’d never quite saw . . . see Enreal’s comment and my response. We all learn so much from each other. There are lessons learned and revelations are revealed in unexpected places. PLL, C
@Dan. Thanks Dan. I’m not sure if you’re talking of Enreal’s comment above and my response or the P.S. at the end. . . Anywho. . . Blessings to you dearest; thanks for the inspritation!
@Gypsy Heart. Love is always the right path; we need to realize that and practice that. . . as we can so easily fall of it. Let us strive to stay n the path of Love. . . Namaste