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May 5, 2010 at 10:33 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: broken heart, confused, control, controlling, cordieb, couples, dating, emotional, emotions, enlightened, enlightment, fear, freedom, god, insecurity, joy, liberty, Love, lovers, marriage, men, mind control, peace, relationship, relationships, spirit, spiritual, Spirituality, women
It’s been well over a year since I wrote this. . . and still the epic continues…
Love, Fear and Enlightenment ~CordieB.
She gazed upon his deep brown eyes
Glaized with love and fear; confused yet wise
she knew he loved her desperately . . . .
he could not risk her flying free
She knew she loved him through all fate
with him she’d found her mirrored mate
but with his love came blind control
Though undeliberate, such control shackled her soul
She knew her love was full and true
but there were other things she also knew . . .
she knew she could not be contained
into the life for which he’d planned
She knew he had insecurities
that would never allow her to simply be
he’d always possess the fear of flight
of her souring endlessly into the night
But since her love was true and tried
she eased his fears; stayed by his side
dealt with his subtle controls of will
convinced his way was better still
In time she lost desire to feel . . .
the warmth of the glowing sun
the coolness of the rain upon
her gentle being which she’d dreamed of
she’d traded peace of mind for love . . .
but still the longing in her eyes
revealed a tale of silent cries
this only hightend his insecurites
gave way to anger; raged immaturities
he’d often, confused, demand her to leave
but she’d hold to her sweet reprieve . . .
then one blessed day so crystal clear
the god’s of earth’s great atmosphere
gave strength to follow the raged command
thus she left the home of her beloved man
which she had humorously dubbed the promise land
though she knew his words were those of fear
the god’s gave her insight true and clear
that though her love was tried and true
living that life again; she she could not do
she needed the ability to shed her tears
to speak or write her words without the fears
of disillusioned, often drunken anger
for which she feared might trigger danger
But still her love so pure remained
Yet her peace of mind was hence regained
she knew she really loved this man
but feared rejection and anger once again . . .
She bathed in sweet tranquilities
she felt she finally could breath
she missed his presense even so . . .
Yet there was a stranger she had to get to know
She needed to get to know herself
not live her life for someone else
she needed to live her own desires
find out what really sparked her fires
Again, her love was tried and true
but being alone was something she needed to do
she’d always ran from man to man
if one doesn’t work out; another one can
was often her motto for many years
so in fact she had never faced her inner fears
thus she found herself crying the same sad tears
She felt if she simply returned for love
the same problems would arise in time thereof
for although she loved him beyond compare
she knew she’d lost a part of self somewhere . . .
Ah yes! she loved him desperately
and felt there love was meant to be
but with raw emotions and fear intertwined
she risked loosing his love to find her mind
To be continued. . . .
~By CordieB
January 7, 2009 at 7:18 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: children, control, controlling relationships, freedom, growth, letting go, Love, men, personalities, relationships, spiritual growth, women
There is a certain sadness one often feels when one has to relinquish control;
The sadness of a dying past…allowing the present to replace the old;
There is a certain anguish in realizing our grasp must be broken;
Like watching our children leave the nest…our real fears are seldom spoken…
Because we know that some of our desires die with our letting go;
But let go we must …in order that love ones can blossom and grow
So, our selfish motivations to hold our love ones near…
is often miscommunicated with sadness, anguish and fear…
If we truly love someone we must encourage them to be
Uniquely themselves by ensuring they are free…
from our insecurity based limitations which may hinder their flight…
Open the window! Allow love ones to find their true light!
~~Written by CordieB
January 6, 2009 at 7:29 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: African American, change, control, cordieb, Courage, Love, Spirituality, strength, Unity, Wisdom
Strength, Courage and Wisdom ~~CordieB
One of the greatest gifts given to me by God is the ability to change my mind ~CordieB.
Let us stop wasting valuable energy trying to change the minds of other people. It is not our job. How and what people think is advanced or limited by their own experiences–their own life lessons–and how well they apply those lessons.
In our presense, other people have the opportunity to grow and perhaps even learn something. Our actions in of themselves will promote change in the hearts of others. When we express ourselves as being capable of loving, listening, sharing, and understanding, we promote the change we so often try to force upon others.
Let us be an example of that we wish to change. Let us spend less time worrying about what other people are thinking or doing and more time creating positive change in ourselves.
August 27, 2008 at 6:53 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: control, lessons, Love, manipulation, peace of mind, relationships, subtle control
©2008 ~Midnighticequeen on Deviant Art
She gazed upon his deep brown eyes
Glaized with love and fear; confused yet wise
she knew he loved her desperately . . . .
he could not risk her flying free
She knew she loved him through all fate
with him she’d found her mirrored mate
but with his love came blind control
Though undeliberate, such control shackled her soul
She knew her love was full and true
but there were other things she also knew . . .
she knew she could not be contained
into the life for which he’d planned
She knew he had insecurities
that would never allow her to simply be
he’d always possess the fear of flight
of her souring endlessly into the night
But since her love was true and tried
she eased his fears; stayed by his side
dealt with his subtle controls of will
convinced his way was better still
In time she lost desire to feel . . .
the warmth of the glowing sun
the coolness of the rain upon
her gentle being which she’d dreamed of
she’d traded peace of mind for love . . .
but still the longing in her eyes
revealed a tale of silent cries
this only hightend his insecurites
gave way to anger; raged immaturities
he’d often, confused, demand her to leave
but she’d hold to her sweet reprieve . . .
then one blessed day so crystal clear
the god’s of earth’s great atmosphere
gave strength to follow the raged command
thus she left the home of her beloved man
which she had humorously dubbed the promise land
though she knew his words were those of fear
the god’s gave her insight true and clear
that though her love was tried and true
living that life again; she she could not do
she needed the ability to shed her tears
to speak or write her words without the fears
of disillusioned, often drunken anger
for which she feared might trigger danger
But still her love so pure remained
Yet her peace of mind was hence regained
she knew she really loved this man
but feared rejection and anger once again . . .
She bathed in sweet tranquilities
she felt she finally could breath
she missed his presense even so . . .
Yet there was a stranger she had to get to know
She needed to get to know herself
not live her life for someone else
she needed to live her own desires
find out what really sparked her fires
Again, her love was tried and true
but being alone was something she needed to do
she’d always ran from man to man
if one doesn’t work out; another one can
was often her motto for many years
so in fact she had never faced her inner fears
thus she found herself crying the same sad tears
She felt if she simply returned for love
the same problems would arise in time thereof
for although she loved him beyond compare
she knew she’d lost a part of self somewhere . . .
Ah yes! she loved him desperately
and felt there love was meant to be
but with raw emotions and fear intertwined
she risked loosing his love to find her mind
To be continued. . . .
~By CordieB
August 7, 2008 at 12:00 am · Filed under Love, Mental Stress, Observations, Spiritual Riddles, Spirituality and tagged: Add new tag, affairs, anger, breakups, cheating, control, couples, hatred, illusions, jelousy, Love, mariage, men, people, relationships, responsibility, Spirituality, women
Photo courtesy of daphid and is licensed under a Creative Commons license.
Some say I’m the most demonic-like spirit of all times;
I have been responsible for a many cacoethes crimes.
I’m the most wrathful spirit known to touch the hearts of men
If not put in check, I can cause all types of vengeful sin.
My rampant rage is likened to a storm weathered battered sea;
My face can become so distorted, you would not even recognize me.
I am red, blue hot; flaming fierier than hell in a forest fire;
I am truly not myself; and you know what?. . . the devil truly is a liar!
I am completely irrational; incoherrent, and out of control;
My emotional complexities reach down to the depths of the very soul;
Don’t come near me; don’t look at me, don’t dare say one word.
Because, I can only hear my own anger and my vision is blurred.
I’m sometimes tamed and charmed by sensual music; a little wine and dance;
But, If I were the object of my desire, I would not even take that chance.
My eyes are bloodshot red with a glimmer of green, and I tremble from inside;
There’s a thin line between love and hate; but it’s not love; perhaps hateful pride.
Whatever it is, take heed my love–for you have been forwarned!
Don’t touch me; Stay your distance; Run for cover, I am the spirit of . . . (Click below for the answer)
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