Spiritual Revelations for Humans Seeking Humanity in Humans ~CordieB.
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May 5, 2010 at 10:33 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: broken heart, confused, control, controlling, cordieb, couples, dating, emotional, emotions, enlightened, enlightment, fear, freedom, god, insecurity, joy, liberty, Love, lovers, marriage, men, mind control, peace, relationship, relationships, spirit, spiritual, Spirituality, women
It’s been well over a year since I wrote this. . . and still the epic continues…
Love, Fear and Enlightenment ~CordieB.
She gazed upon his deep brown eyes
Glaized with love and fear; confused yet wise
she knew he loved her desperately . . . .
he could not risk her flying free
She knew she loved him through all fate
with him she’d found her mirrored mate
but with his love came blind control
Though undeliberate, such control shackled her soul
She knew her love was full and true
but there were other things she also knew . . .
she knew she could not be contained
into the life for which he’d planned
She knew he had insecurities
that would never allow her to simply be
he’d always possess the fear of flight
of her souring endlessly into the night
But since her love was true and tried
she eased his fears; stayed by his side
dealt with his subtle controls of will
convinced his way was better still
In time she lost desire to feel . . .
the warmth of the glowing sun
the coolness of the rain upon
her gentle being which she’d dreamed of
she’d traded peace of mind for love . . .
but still the longing in her eyes
revealed a tale of silent cries
this only hightend his insecurites
gave way to anger; raged immaturities
he’d often, confused, demand her to leave
but she’d hold to her sweet reprieve . . .
then one blessed day so crystal clear
the god’s of earth’s great atmosphere
gave strength to follow the raged command
thus she left the home of her beloved man
which she had humorously dubbed the promise land
though she knew his words were those of fear
the god’s gave her insight true and clear
that though her love was tried and true
living that life again; she she could not do
she needed the ability to shed her tears
to speak or write her words without the fears
of disillusioned, often drunken anger
for which she feared might trigger danger
But still her love so pure remained
Yet her peace of mind was hence regained
she knew she really loved this man
but feared rejection and anger once again . . .
She bathed in sweet tranquilities
she felt she finally could breath
she missed his presense even so . . .
Yet there was a stranger she had to get to know
She needed to get to know herself
not live her life for someone else
she needed to live her own desires
find out what really sparked her fires
Again, her love was tried and true
but being alone was something she needed to do
she’d always ran from man to man
if one doesn’t work out; another one can
was often her motto for many years
so in fact she had never faced her inner fears
thus she found herself crying the same sad tears
She felt if she simply returned for love
the same problems would arise in time thereof
for although she loved him beyond compare
she knew she’d lost a part of self somewhere . . .
Ah yes! she loved him desperately
and felt there love was meant to be
but with raw emotions and fear intertwined
she risked loosing his love to find her mind
To be continued. . . .
~By CordieB
July 27, 2009 at 7:51 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: cordieb, Courage, darkness, dispair, ego, emotions, enemy, evil, friend, friendship, goodness, happiness, hope, hug yourself, light, Love, personality, poem, Poetry, rain, relationships, self, soul, spirit, Spirituality, split personality, strength, sunshine, Wisdom, worst enemy
Repost for myself; as mine own worst enemy seems to be creeping in more often, here lately…… Do you battle with your own worst enemy too? If so, remember your best friend is always there to comfort you.
Thought for The Day: Have you hugged yourself, today? ~CordieB
This poem was inspired by a very, very good friend and confidant, who often shares with us her own worst enemy and her own best friend over at Just Paisley and Why Paisley . Also, a fellow artist, TekkieBrek, planted the seed for this poem with his beautiful artwork, shown in reduced size below.
Always by Your Side by TekkieBrek
Mine own worst enemy and mine own best friend…
an infinate circle of sainthood and sin…
have always been with me; from beginning to end
through good times; through bad times; thick and thin
Both have tugged at my soul since God only knows when. . .
Mine own worst enemy screams words of hurt and dispair…
then my best friend comes to my aide with comfort and care
she hugs me ever so gently; caresses my soul
whilst mine own worst enemy digs a dark hole
into the core of my heart creating disbelief
in the beauty of life; thus making it hard to concieve…
a life worth living; a love worth giving…
then mine own best friend again comes along
she kisses my spirit; sings me a beautiful song
of love and joy; bright sunny skies
she reminds me of the falsness of the hurt, pain and lies…
that mine own worst enemy so often spews…
she opens the funny pages in the mist of bad news…
Yes, she awakens my spirit and rocks me to sleep
as I moan, as I tremble, as I lay, as I weep…
She caresses my head; massages my tired, aching feet
Sending mine own worst enemy into a silent retreat. . .
where mine own worst enemy gathers strength for another blow
launching me once more into a wreckless, dispairing low
Yet, I endure with patient vigilence for the love within
to give renewed strength, courage and wisdom to mine own best friend . . .
~Written by CordieB.
April 23, 2009 at 6:49 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: Corinth, destruction, emotions, light, Love, relationships
~Kama111 on deviant ART
I felt I needed to repost this today; as my ego has a way of creeping in ever so cleverly. . . thus I must step back and abandon the road to Corinth. . . And. . . Tobeme so humbly reminded me, as he often does, in his last two posts how we must stay abreast; stay awake. Awaken our spirits. Allow not our vessels to become too full. Let the source, love, prevail!!
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Her eyes reflected somber desires
of souls who craved the flame and fires
in life’s existence day and night
grasping what they thought she possessed; the light . . .
she knew the light was truly not her’s to give . . .
but preserved within each soul who lived and gived
though some were blinded by the insistent need to be
warmed by the light for which they boldly seeked
she knew the answers to their plight;
resigned in one’s self through love’s insight
but the answer seemed too simplistic
to be embraced as true or realistic
She knew she had a simple, precious gift . . .
Thus often, foolishly, she tried to lift . . .
the spirits of seemingly lightless souls
in vain she tried to make them whole . . .
not realizing with each vain attempt
the light reflected pure contempt;
the egos of fogged lights’ reflections
so often produced pain and rejection
thus the light that once shined clarity
in time became the object of jealousy and envy
the plight for light often dulled her beam
she’d loose insight of her own dream
since what she tried to give away
could not be gifted anyway . . .
for each soul must find their own way . . .
in time she began to realize . . .
her light so often hypnotized . . .
but all illusions are revealed
once realized; they have no zeal . . .
for truth is reflected from light within;
only when truths emerge can love begin . . .
So with raw emotions and quiet strength . . .
she abandoned the road leading to Corinth
~Written by CordieB
March 16, 2009 at 5:29 pm · Filed under Mental Stress, Observations, Original Stuff, Poetry, Riddles, Spiritual Riddles, Spirituality and tagged: bad, cordieb, crazy, emotional, emotions, excited, good, happy, kinky bored, Love, mood, moody, nervous, neutral, personality, PMS, sad, spiritual, spiritual riddle, tired
- Photo courtesy of Photoƒreaks, click on Photo to Play a Fun Game!!!
I sometimes swing like a pendulum…
At times, ecstatic; other times…humdrum
My host feels best when I’m somewhat stable
As, I’m a strong factor on whether she’s able …
to motion herself to move from her current state
of life… which shall determine her fate…
or whether he’s able to spawn the passion
to inseminate life; but more importantly, compassion,
by nurturing with love to aide life’s blossom…
Sometimes I’m tempered like a gentle lake
who in her bounty, life partakes…
yet at times, I’m akin to the roughest sea
whom without his majesty, life would cease to be…
I’m a scale of what many gauge from bad to good
I am the sum of your thoughts; I am …
(Click below for riddle answer. . . I know everyone is going to get this one correct!!! lol
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February 12, 2009 at 6:26 pm · Filed under Observations and tagged: belief, believing, cordie, cordieb, Depression, doubt, emotions, joy, Love, negative, peace, poem, Poetry, Riddles, spiritual riddle, Spirituality, unbelief
Photo courtesy of Jill Greeseth , and is licenced under the Creative Commons
I am the tallest, darkest shadow to fall upon the hearts of men;
I have caused enormous calamity, failure and sin;
With me in a heart, humans seldom ever win.
Such a cold, dark, shallow shadow am I;
I bring on fears and tears, causing humans to sigh, asking why?
I’ve destroyed countless relationships, successes and faith;
I’m quite subtle, yet very strong is my wrath;
All minds and hearts will inevitably at times see me in their path.
All humans encounter me, some more than another;
You see, insecurity is my sister and worry is my brother;
My father is fear; suspicion, my mother.
I embrace souls at night like a new found lover.
If you are not carefull, I will suffocate you under my dark, thick cover.
Like a blanket of dread, I cover my prey;
To release yourself of my wrath, you must kneel down and pray;
Stay thankful and hopeful, live day by day.
I’ve had many second-guessing what’s wrong from right.
I cause anxiousness, apprehensiveness,
and can make hearts uptight;
But my shadow is very easily overcome by the family of light . . .
For the bright light of hope, faith, and love shine so bright
And they bring courage, security and trust to join in the fight;
Such illuminosity, clarity, and brilliance is their light,
It will cause my dark, deep shadow to fade and disappear straight into the night!
Who am I? (click below for answer)
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December 4, 2008 at 1:36 pm · Filed under Christianity, Humanity, Love, Mental Stress, Poetry, Spiritual Riddles, Spirituality and tagged: African American, Art, cordieb, Depression, discovery, emotions, independence, light, Love, peace, people, reclaiming, Reflections, self, spirit, Spirituality, therapy, value, Wisdom
Print, Entitled "Peace, Love and Soul" Courtesy of CordieB.
If you can’t seem to get it together, it may be that you have given too much of yourself away. It may be that you have compromised, over-compensated, given in and given over so much of yourself that you no longer know where all of the pieces have been scattered. Perhaps the things you thought you needed to do to get love, to experience yourself as loveable, to be acknowledged, left you splintered, shattered and broken into so many pieces you feel like you will never be able to pull yourself together. Don’t worry! You have simply experienced an invasion of the body snatchers!
A body-snatchers invasion will distort the truth about you. It will make you forget your true identity. it will make you feel guilty about your desire to take care of yourself and honor yourself. It will point out the wrongness of your choices, the dangers of your decisions, the impossibility of your visions and the fallacy of your beliefs. A little nip here. A little peck here…
There is a way to pull yourself back together when you have been accosted by body snatchers. You must examine all the times you gave others the right to make your decisons, when you expected others to do for you what only you had the power to do, when you gave others the right to decide your destiny and when you dishonored yourself in order to pelase others. When you remember what you have done, forgive yourself! Most important, you must say, "Never again."
Until today, you may not have realized that you had been invaded by body snatchers who have dismembered pieces and parts of your identity. Just for today, protect yourself! Be aware of the things you do that deminish and distort the sense of wholeness, worthiness, and your ability to make your own choices and decisions.
~Iyanla Vanzant
